I momentarily must revert back to posting a personal blog.
I am in full panic mode – I’ve broken down crying multiple times today.
I fear that everything is unraveling.
Moments before work last night, my roommate – the one who has been living with me for almost a year. The one who so desperately needed a place to live because his girlfriend had kicked him out. The one I met through my [former] best friend and helped as much as I could.
He sent me a text letting me know that he is moving out.
Yesterday morning I thought for once everything was beginning to look up for me, and now I have to go through the worry and anxiety of finding a new roommate.
Two of the major reasons why I got this house to begin with… have moved out.
My morning has been filled with thoughts of whether getting this house was the biggest mistake I’ve ever made or not. The tears and the uncontrollable emotions keep coming unexpectedly for me today.
I feel so lost. Abandoned. I don’t know what to do and I feel I have absolutely no one to lean on.
The story of my life continues…
I need a new roommate – preferably someone who shares my interest of books and hopefully can also respect my stuff.
I wish I had the ability to just walk away from all of this – like my [former] best friend and my room mate have, but I don’t have that option.
I am stuck and I fear this is how things will be for the rest of my life. I don’t know how to overcome this.