I almost collapsed at work again. I experienced all the terrible things that put me in the hospital this past December again. The only difference is that I took it upon myself to find a place to sit down and let my body regain it’s bearings.

But I don’t think that I’m out of the woods yet.

I have an internal bleeding problem and it is getting the best of me lately. When I went to the hospital the prescription I was given were B vitamins and Iron. In order to recuperate at work I bought myself a MONSTER energy drink. For those unaware, those drinks are quite loaded with B vitamins. Since they are in liquid form, they metabolize fast and make me feel not on the verge of death.

“Verge of death” is a phrase that I don’t use lightly. When these episodes happen, I literally believe I’m about to die.

There is no blood in me – my body is beginning to shut down eventually.

I wish that I had the money to get the surgery that will take care of my bleeding problem.

Even routine surgery’s are expensive.

Overwhelming debt in the US is the only way to avoid death in America. What an ultimatum.